Before I came to Hawaii, I was a little apprehensive. Bad memories of the last time
(about ten years ago now) flooded back into my mind. I had just turned 11, it was my brothers wedding, and my mom was being her controlling self. It wasn't the best of times. I could have had better
(then again, we could all have better times in hindsight).
Ten years later: I'm 21, my brother is still married
(in these times with certain sports figures, it says something), and I'm not here with my mom. I'm here on vacation with my pops and step-mom as they get ready to retire here. I can now start to see why they are going to move here. It's warmer, it's slower paced, people are kind and respect each other more here, people are
WAY more friendlier than they are on the mainland
(sorry southerners, this place beats you out by a long shot), and it's pretty damn rad to be able to go to so many different beaches with very little to no other people on the beach
BUT you.
"Sure, Hawaii is a fantastic place to visit," you might say.
"It's got somethings to do, but I could never live there. It's too hot." I call
BULLSHIT. The very first day I arrived here, I was sweating profusely. It wasn't awesome. I didn't really care too much for the lei's, but i dealt with the smell. I wasn't...enthused. This place takes some getting used to, for sure. We went to the beach in Kailua, Lani Kai, and it was blowing a fucking gale. This wasn't what I had in mind. Where was the calm beach, the beer in my hand as I looked out onto the ocean? Why is there 25mph wind? For Christ's sake, this sucked!
Fortunately, that was just the first hour. I was tired from the plane ride and a little hungry
(alright I was really hungry). But the next three days I learned to start thinking a bit slower, and not really give a shit about what happens. I thought I knew how to back home...nay nay. Back home is gossip, is the whose-whose of everyday life, the ins and outs of climbing. Frustration, F-bombs, stress...that's what home is
(something I'm not looking forward to returning to, at all) for me. Here, I haven't cursed. No random yelling, no madness, nothing. I'm for once enjoying my time somewhere! It's amazing. The people are friendlier and cheery
(something I can't stand back home) and actually say thanks for no reason other than to make you smile and say thank you back. They don't say 'You're Welcome' here, which is refreshing. We're both thankful for the service and time and the fact that we're still alive on this dirtball floating through space and time. Yep, people here are rad.
But back home I have friends and a job route setting. Yes, it's only twice a week if that, but it's responsibilities. I believe I was going down a road of being burnt out and surly. I'd turn into another miserable bastard of a setter, something I have seen time and time again at certain places around the country. Yes, I too was getting to be THAT guy that hates life and is miserable. Every gym has one or two of them
(or a who staff full of them). I'm actually glad I came here now. This might become a yearly thing for me. I enjoy it. It's relaxing and refreshing to see new things, new people. I like getting my sorry-ass handed to me trying to snorkel in the ocean because I'm terrified of drowning and being in over my head. It's humbling. As crazy as it seems, I actually enjoy reflecting on myself and seeing how I was going down a path that only lead to being miserable.
As
Chris Bloch put it so eloquently,
"See that guy? He's on a fast track to NOWHERE."