Amongst the madness

Bridges Route Setters: Ben Eastman (BE), Wendy Lin (WL), Clay Usinger (CU), Cryil (LCY), Rowan Jiménez (RJ), Austin Cheung (AC).

Not pictured: Chris Bloch (CB), Wes Miraglio (WES)

So I figured out that I don't have social anxiety but performance anxiety in front of tightly packed people. My head just FREAKS out. Now that I know this, I'm going to work on this weakness. This madness (as I call it) shuts my filter off which is bad. It shall stop.

Cryil

Anyways, I helped the crew forerun yesterday. I seriously need to get outside. I feel weaker and need inspiration. Bishop looks good. Anywhere! Plastic is wearing down the mind...is that possible? I believe it is cause it's happening. The madness has set inside me. Not the good madness but the frustration and anger type. The type that no one wants (not even me). Guess I ain't no Sampson and wasn't strong enough to keep it out this time around. Working on eradicating it though. Mortar Rock might just do that for me. Castle too. Outside and some sends (on anything!) will help my head. I can't believe I had to turn down Yosemite Valley because of prior obligations. But I am getting paid for these obligations so I guess it's not a bad thing (but still, the Valley got turned down! Negative!) I will have some cheerier posts in the future. I just need to get this put of my system.

Thanks for reading.